I'm not sure when Omeed and I became intimate, and I'm not sure what
started it, but I think we're now classified as Lovers, I don't know
what other type of relationship you can have with a man given our
situation. Periodic sex partners?
We sneak away during our free time when we're sure no one had noticed
us, to “relieve stress” we'll call it. I thought we were being so
clever, but Min questioned me almost immediately when we were alone.
She's a good girl, be it a bit of a princess.
She came to me as soon as I woke up today, her eyes still red from
sobbing over her monkey and made me promise that I make her cat
Bianca well again. The poor thing has been out for almost a full day
now. We're already short on medicine as it is, so I'm going to have
to do my best without using it.
Thankfully Bianca survived and it up walking around now, maybe Min
will start smiling again?
Omeed on the other hand is still in bed resting, our relationship, if
you can really call it that, was mean to be just for fun, but I'm
worrying more and more the longer he stays in bed. I'm too my
breaking point, but I can tell I'm not the only one though.... we
just need to hang on for a little longer and I'm sure that things
will start to turn around.
Min's crying again, only this time because the stove she was trying
to build collapsed. She's mumbling to herself as she works, I can't
understand what she's saying, but I'm sure it's nothing good. I can
tell by the tone of her voice.
Just got to keep it together a little longer.
Or not.
Frag.
I was carrying back some wood to build some more beds and a came
across Min strangling a turkey with her tiny manicured hands. I
paused in spite of myself, it was horrifying, but I couldn't look
away. She kept yelling repeatedly as she shook the turkey until it's
neck snapped. Then, as if it could get any worse, she opened her
mouth as wide as she could and chomped down into the bird's feathery
body. She yanked her head back, tearing feathers and flesh out with
her teeth before dipping her blood-covered mouth back into the gash
she had made and tearing at the flesh again.
My heart slammed sporadically against my chest as I watched this
young sweet girl turn into a complete animal in front of my eyes. I
felt my stomach role and clench painfully, bring me back to my
senses. The last thing I needed right now was to throw up stomach
bile everywhere. I hurried past Min, forcing my eyes to stay a head
of me as I tried my damnedest to not vomit at the sound of bones
snapping behind me.
Just got to--
I CAN'T BELIEVE BULL LOCKED ME OUT OF THE COLONY. WHO DOES HE THINK
HE IS?!
I'LL KILL HIM.
I'LL KILL EVERY LAST ONE OF THEM.
NO.
THAT'S TOO GOOD FOR THEM
THEY MUST SUFFER
SUFFER LIKE I HAVE
ALWAYS CLEANING UP AFTER THEM
THEY WOULD DIE WITHOUT ME
DIE
DIE
DIE!
WELL NOW THEY'RE GOING TO DIE BECAUSE OF ME!
--
The potatoes are ready to harvest, finally we have some food. I
finished the wood stove and we're now going to be able to actually
make some meals.
I better check on Omeed again, and fee--
Passed out for a bit there...
Frag I'm tired, and hungry.
Thank goodness for potatoes.
Omeed is finally up and about, he said he was full of energy so he
was going to play Horse Shoes for a bit. That's good, I'm glad he's
feeling better. Me though, I need some sleep.
I hope Min is alright, I saw her shirt in the hallway and Bull said
that he saw her wandering around outside naked. I asked him why he
didn't pull her inside, but he just raised his hands in mock
surrender and mumbled something about her being covered in blood.
He seemed to be acting a little wary of me. I wonder why?
--
Omeed found Min this morning, she was about 20 meters from the
colony, naked and passed out in the middle of a field. He carried her
in right away and put her in the medical bed we have. The wounds on
her torso and right arm are severely infected. Bull said that he
treated her, but he obviously didn't do a good job.
She's running a fever and mumbling in her sleep. Fever dreams tend to
be the worst type of nightmare.
I tired. Oh Frag I tired.
I tired so hard, but I couldn't do anything to save her.
She was so young. In her prime.
She was just a baby.
Oh Frag... I had a niece her age.
She opened her eyes just she rattled her last breath and smiled at
me. It was so peaceful, how could she have looked so peaceful. I'm
sorry Min, I'm so sorry I couldn't save you.
Blevins dug you a grave Min, I'm going to bury you myself, after I
get you all cleaned up and dress properly. I know you wouldn't be
able to stand being seen in this state.
Frag, I'm so sorry Princess.
It's not the best grave Princess, but I'll get Bull to plant you some
flowers, I know how much you like pretty things. I remember you
telling me Daylilies were your favourite, I'll get him to plant you
some of those.
I have to stay busy now, if I don't, I'll go crazy.
I know, I'll build.
There's a lot of things we need built around here. I'll start with
the dining chairs, not the most important thing we need built, but I
know you wouldn't want me to leave your project half done Min, so
I'll do it for you.
No one knows how to act around me now, since I let you die...
Not even Omeed knows how to comfort me. I need your smile and your
chatter Princess. I just want someone to hug me and tell me
everything is going to be okay. I just want someone to hold me.
Princess, are you full and healthy where you are?
You're not in pain anymore are you?
I can't sleep because I'm just full of questions. Omeed is in the bed
across the room from me, it's a small room Princess, you wouldn't
have liked it. I'm sure you're putting on a show wherever you are.
Don't worry, I'll take care of Bianca.
I'll take care of her. Better than I took care of you Princess. I'm
sorry.
--
We heard a crash early this morning, Omeed went to go investigate. We
were surprised to see him coming back with an old man slung over his
back. You would have been disgusted Princess, I can see you face now,
contorted in confusion and contempt at this man's hair. You can
probably see it from wherever you are... don't laugh at his spiked
Mohawk Princess, that's not very nice.
Omeed dragged him into the small room he and I were sleeping in, I
guess we finally get to use one of these rooms for what they were
meant for.
Or not.
Omeed was talking to Alaska for only an hour and convinced him to
join our little congregation. Maybe it was because delirious, I mean,
the man did pass out almost right as Omeed left the room, he had to
rush back and move Alaska to the medical bed.
Princess, I'm going to try to show Omeed that I'm getting better, I
made us a double bed. I need him right now Min. I'm not trying to
forget you, I would never. Hopefully being close to someone will help
me feel better. Just some physical contact, you know?
The rain keeps making the solar panels short circuit, the second one
just went out as I was tending to Alaska's wounds. I heard the
explosion from the room. I'll have to wait until the rain stops to
fix it, because there's no use fixing it just so it can break again.
I have no opinion of this man yet, but I get an uneasy feeling when
I'm around him. I felt him leering at me whenever I had my back
turned. It's a strange feeling I tell you, it feels like prickles
between your shoulder blades. Rather unsettling really.
I feel bad for Blevins, she has to share a room with him for the time
being. We should make sure to hurry and dig out a room for her as
soon as we can tomorrow. I don't think this guy would have even liked
you Princess, he seems to hate all women. I can picture you making a
joke about him, don't do that Princess, it's not nice.
I'm glad I made this bed, being close to someone is really helping. I
feel more at ease, surprisingly enough. Omeed likes it too, he
apologised for being so distant after I let you die. He said he
wasn't sure how to comfort me.
I missed you Princess, but I have to keep moving forward if I'm going
to survive down here.
